The last couple of days have been difficult around this
house. I try so very hard to stay
positive on a daily basis and trust that for all the bad days there will be good
ones. During rough times it can be a very difficult thing to convince yourself
of. Little Butter Bean is well
into the terrible 2’s and while I am ever grateful she is a happy and healthy
child the insanity of this age is really wearing me down. She and Sweet Pea run around like maniacs
all day long, screaming, wrestling, and being wild. We go out to play, someone gets hurt, we come inside, and
something gets broken. It’s utter chaos. I love them with my whole heart and
feel guilty every time I get frustrated. They are children and it is their job.
I am a mom and I suppose getting worn down is my job.
Sweet Pea is ready for kindergarten. She is reading, writing, and extremely
interested in learning. A few years back the ridiculous lovely state of
California decided that all children who did not turn 5 before September 1st
would no longer be able to attend kindergarten that year and must wait an
additional year. The cut off used
to be December 1st. Sweet Pea was born in November so you know where that leaves
her. It really should be evaluated
on a case-by-case basis. Some kids
are ready and some aren’t. However, if you live in California, you know how the
State operates. Tax the citizens
hard and NEVER spend a dime if you don’t have to. So here we are. She is at home another year and bored out of
her mind. She attends preschool but
I am unable to send her 5 days a week.
It is very expensive. I try hard to spend extra time on learning
activities and preparing her for the upcoming year but I am not a teacher.
I love my girls, more then life itself, and I am trying so
hard to cherish these days. I know
there are so few of them before they grow up. People remind me of this all of the time like I am not aware
of it and honestly it only frustrates me more. While you are cleaning the
spilled milk out of the carpet, doing dishes for the 30th time in 5
hours, saying “stop screaming please” again and again, breaking up another
fight, stepping on Cheerios, cleaning crayon off the walls, issuing time outs
every minute and a half, dreading a 10 minute trip to the grocery store, never
eating a hot meal, struggling to hear one phone call, and still getting up in
the middle of the night with a kid who has trouble sleeping, it can be
difficult to say “I’m gonna miss these days!” I know I will… someday.